So does the world really hate me as much as it seems right now? Yeah, i think it really does.

I swear I havent stopped crying since 11 this afternoon.

God!!!! I quit! OOOOh my god I dont even know what to do! The barn was such hell today *shakes head* People were being bitches....Emily invited a whole bunch of people to her house and I was walking by and heard sarah say 'well what about Brandi, is she coming?' and Emily said "oh..she doesnt need to know about it" I mean, come on...do people really hate me that much?
So then I go and get on my horse and ALL debbie says to me the whole lesson is 'you wont beat chelsea riding like that' 'you cant win an eq. class with your legs looking like that' 'maybe this is why chelsea always beats you' Come on people! She's supposed to be my trainer, not somebody to criticise my every move! So yeah, I got off of sugar crying and just called my mom and told her to come pick me up.
I ran out of the barn into SarahLee's stall so I wouldnt have to talk to anybody. When my mom got to the barn I just broke down ... I mean, I literally fell apart. I just sat there and told her that I couldnt take it anymore and I didnt want to do it and I couldnt handle the people and the compotition. So she emailed Debbie and told her that Sugar is for sale and that we will be moving Sheri and she gave her the price to sell sugar at and my tail set and suit.
I mean...I'm happy that I dont have to do this anymore and that I'll be away from all the people, but I never ever planned on selling Sugar. She's my life...I love her so much it's unreal.
The only good thing about this is that I'm getting a goat out of it. lol.
I just dont know what to do anymore..I think it's just the aspect of having a trainer and having to please her is what's bothering me so much..and if I could just ride for fun and not be so stressed at the shows then I'd enjoy riding again. So in a way this is good cus I'll be doing exactly that..just riding Sheri for fun and playing with my little goatie.
I'm going out to the barn tomorrow to take pictures of my little Sugar girly :) that'll be fun.
So that's all for now.